màt

I’m out of time, out of space.

I’m out of judgement, out of concienceness.

I’m out of my body, out of my soul, out of my life

Alienated, Abducted

I’m not myself, THIS ! is NOT me

At least I hope so

Dark side that I hate

Weakness that somehow I embrace

I’m watching me… playing a part… in a fucking drama !! and I disagree.

And I just shut down

Too coward that I am.

I’m the 3 monkeys

I don’t see, I don’t hear, I don’t speak…

Am I losing my identity ?

Am I selling my values ?

Am I getting untrustworthy ?

Are you ? I wish not… Tell me not

I’m afraid to get bitter, greedy, easy virtue… fucking WHORE

Is it the price I have to pay, for being unabashedly apathic my whole life ?

Ashamed and dirty, but not sorry !! Don’t feel I have to be

Don’t feel I’m hurting anyone… But me

Don’t get used to this màt, coz I won’t handle it, I don’t belong to it.